The last few weeks have been lacking for me…..that gnawing feeling of knowing you have sooooo much yet feel so droll. I am one who finds aesthetic beauty in places that one doesn’t always look….and somehow in this move to Alabama…in the leaving of all I knew in the life we left….I had lost the time I take to make pretty. At first it was the littlest of things, having no one in the community I knew I wasn’t taking anything to them….not baking, not sharing, not caring for others as I had in the old life…….not picking up flowers to share from town, because we’re in town and its not known the same as in the country where something “from town” is a joy indeed…
Its been so quiet here, without someone to sit and share a cup of coffee, or laugh over a child’s delight. Its a time I have tried very hard to be thankful for, we have so many blessings in this new job, this new home, this new life….but it is hard to find me again.
This morning I realized so much of what I am missing is the nurture of others…and the joy it gives me. I miss too the joy of looking, seeing things of beauty….of coming to simply appreciate the beauty of life. Krstin of Twinkle Life, a complete stranger through her blog wrote of things that could have been written from my own heart of the joy in knowing, the joy of loving and enjoying that which is ours….and reaching out to capture the joys that are offered to us through our time with others…..somehow as I read, it was of no surprise that she indeed knows Paige…another complete stranger, who’s heart also rings so true.
Realness…..beauty unfolding in truth…..and I am thankful to both of these precious ones today for helping me realize the joy that is mine. They are indeed beautiful.